August 8, 2005
Dear Helen,
You asked me what the last eight years have meant to me. It’s hard to know where to begin, for it
sometimes feels that everything good in my life has happened during that
time. I know that’s not quite true, but
even so everything good that was there before seems brighter and better in the
new light you brought into my life.
I met you at the time I needed you most, when my belief in myself was at
its lowest point after years of abuse.
You turned that around immediately just by being willing to love
me. How could I stay down on myself
when someone as wonderful as you wanted me?
You have continued to love and sustain me through all the ups and downs
(mostly ups!) since. Your love has been
the foundation on which I re-built my own self esteem.
Even more than believing in myself, I finally learned for the very first
time what it meant to have faith in “us” – a faith that we are meant to be
together and that nothing can tear us apart, not even the fact that we both act
like Leos sometimes! I have never felt
such closeness to another person in my life.
I have never been with anyone I felt I understood as well, nor anyone
who understood me as well as you do.
Every new experience we share makes our bond stronger. We don’t feel threatened by new ideas or new
people, and that I think is a sign that we are destined to continue growing
together eternally.
Knowing I had your support has freed me to look for ways to expand my
consciousness, my spirituality, and my contribution to the Universe. I actually feel that I matter, and that what
I do with my life makes a difference.
Your belief in me far exceeds my belief in myself even now – my greatest
aspiration is to try to be all the things you see in me! You are my role model, for the unconditional
love you offer to me and to everyone else willing to accept the challenge. I will always be grateful for the way you
accepted my children as your own, and so willingly invited me to be a full
partner in parenting Derrick. Speaking
of Derrick, what a fringe benefit he has been!
I thank you also for the opportunity to be his proud father.
On top of everything else, you have made my life just a whole lot more
fun than it has ever been. You have
showed me there is nothing wrong with enjoying life and we have made the most
of it together. Anything we experience
together is rewarding, if only sometimes for the togetherness itself. Sad times are more bearable because of your
comfort, and good times are ecstatic because of your joy. Because of you, I know the future will hold
ever more opportunity for happiness and shared joy.
In short, my darling, what these eight years have meant to me is that
life is a delightful experience, and infinitely better for being shared with
you. Thank you for your strength, your
wisdom, your joy – and your love. May
we have many more years together on Earth before we begin our journey together
through Eternity.
All my love,